Sunday, June 14, 2009

Leave Your Baggage at the Door

If only it were that easy, right? Today seemed like a good day. I thought I was coping. It's sad that a few meaningless events can so quickly alter my mood. I thought of my Wih tonight and cried knowing she lives so far away. No matter how I try to push it all away, there are just times when the emotions are overwhelming and I feel small. Tonight I feel lost in my own world and uncomfortable in my own skin. While I can think myself through it mentally, I can't seem to push myself past it emotionally. Dang, just when I had finally stopped sleeping with the chocolate chips under my pillow, too!!!!

On the B Side: I know that we all struggle and I do know that this will pass. Between now and then though feels eternal and my mind is not spotless.


6 shout outs:

Linda said...

Just popping in to leave you a big hug!

Lois Grebowski said...

Big hugs, my friend...Great. Big. Hugs!

Amanda said...

I had never thought to use chocolate chips under the pillow as a way to cope. I think I will try it tonight!

Laura said...

you put chocolate chips under your pillow too?!!! I keep them by my laptop..in the pantry...makes my day every time I find them too :)

Kristin said...

Makes me laugh. I've been through 1 1/2 bags of chocolate chips recently. By the way, don't worry about your baggage, bring it on over and we'll sort through it together. I'll bring mine and maybe we can trade. ;)

Liz said...

i really wish you had a land-line so i could call without giving you a freakish international phone bill!
I think about you all the time and am really hoping that i can save up for a little visit down to the UT next year.