Friday, October 31, 2008

Elvis Has A Bloddy Pelvis

To know "Frichelle" is to love her. Today she sent this picture of she and Framy;

Here is the text that accompanied her picture:

"I totally won funniest costume with my accessory, Priscilla. Let me share a quick story… My costume in all of it’s glory…had a wardrobe malfunction. We had to run to the store for our pot luck luncheon. Just as I got out of my car…Priscilla asked me if I knew I’d started my period. Don’t worry this WAS after we were in the Halloween parade in front of the entire company. Elvis has a bloody pelvis. FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Are you kidding me?!?!"

No Frichelle. No, I am not. I'm baaaaaack.

Thursday 13 and Friday Fab 5

1. I am always a day late and a dollar short! Hence my Thursday 13 on Friday, which I think also easily covers my Friday Fab 5!!!

2. My birthday really was fabulous yesterday!

3. A call from the notorious W.I.H. always makes my day!

4. Gift certies from Victorias Secret, the Cheesecake Factory and Macy's didn't hurt either.

5. Cupcakes made with love by the coolest SIL eva' kicked off my birthday festivities!

6. I got cards that sing from both my Mom and Dad (I had to take them away from the children in an effort to preserve sanity) but the best card of all came from Mic and Jazzy...'nuff said!

7. Facebook allows for many birthday wishes! We're talking 30+ people that I would not normally hear from. I feel like a princess!

8. Little Two Scoops, Pink velour, ruffles and a hood are always to die for!

9. The girls were adorable in their Halloween costumes for school! DD's is today and I'm on a mission to find the cord to my camera so I can upload pics ;)

10. I still haven't got that call that I want but I'm hoping Friday is my lucky day, right?

11. It's precious beyond words when the little people in your life sing 'Happy Birthday' to you!

12. VM's from loved ones *trying* to sing made me laugh and yes, I did save them!

13. It doesn't matter where you are you can always enjoy life. My Mom went to the ER because of issues with her heart yesterday. Much of my birthday time was spent at the hospital with her and I'm headed back up today. I like the quiet meaningful moments the best.

On the B Side: A huge thank you to those I love most and to everyone who stopped to pause to wish me a Happy Birthday! All kinds of wishes poured in via the web, text, email and the phone. I am one lucky girl and I don't take it for granted for one moment! And Marky, the remote start on my tank will be used time and time again!

and no I shall not forget...HAPPY HALLOWEEN!
Know what these are?

BOO BEES! (at least that's what she said! xxox)

Thursday, October 30, 2008

Happy Birthday to Me!

Yes, today is the day! I am officially 18 for-EV-er! The festivities began with some simple birthday wishes from India yesterday (since it was already my b-day there!), cards from my Dad, my MIL and husband's Grandpa and the night ended with a visit, gifts and cupcakes from Jazzy and THE BEST SIL in the history of the world!

On the B Side: Time to hit the shower! My day has just begun and I WILL enjoy it!

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

Angel and a Pest

Cheers to my darling Ivanhoe as this meme is all hers!

Angel: This week I have 3 that I need to call out; Clancy, Kristin and Shellie.

Clancy Pants, I love our chats and feel like a jerk wad for falling asleep last night in the midst of our 'shiz diggin' session! I love that we can rely on one another and confide in one another.

Kristin, you are the latest and greatest friend. I love that we can chat about real things and I really want to thank you for your kindness, concern, insights and above all for your genuine friendship.

Shellie, The right words at the right time make all of the difference. Our chat yesterday made me smile at the days from the past when we would stay up late and run back and forth between the condos. I do so miss you and was reminded all over again yesterday just how precious you are.

Girls, you are all important to me and serve as serious blessings in my life! Thank you a thousand times over.

Pest: I won't call anyone out but will suffice it to say that it is painful to try to respect people who abdicate responsibility. So rather then try to do something that goes completely against my nature I can flat out tell you that I just don't respect individuals who refuse to be accountable. I am sure that I have done this in my own life and realize that we are all imperfect. Witnessing this behavior this week has made me acutely aware of it. I am living, learning and want to constantly strive to be a better person.

On the B Side: Today is a big day! Best of luck to you, Carrie! We need to pow wow tonight so we can swap stories. Long live Facebook (did I really just say that? yes. yes, i did.)

Monday, October 27, 2008

Manic Monday: Ghost

I have been a blogging ghost for the past two weeks. This is the first break that I have taken since I started blogging diligently well over a year ago. Without going into any great detail it's no secret to some that I have been battling myself in one rather serious case of post partum. While I was determined to be 'normal', manage myself/my life/my family and deny any inkling of weakness it became more and more obvious to those closest to me. At some point it was necessary that I take inventory internally rather than just hoping it would pass.

Let me be the first to say that Two Scoops is now three months old and I absolutely love her to pieces. She is the sweetest little thing and loved by all. The most common comment that we get just about everywhere we go is along these lines, 'she looks like a little doll'. Her petite features and porcelain skin no doubt contribute to that line of thinking and while I am partial I full heartedly confess that she is beautiful and really does look like a little doll!

Prior to my struggles I always thought post partum had to do with not liking your baby and/or not wanting to be a Mother. I thought it meant that you were depressed all of the time and just couldn't function or didn't want to live. I know now just how off base I really was and I can assure you that if you have not experienced it, you have no idea. It really is a quiet but crazy, roller coaster of an intangible battle that is so loud in my own head.

It's an internal war that is waging and much of the time I am able to fully and completely mask it to others. In reality my emotions are at the surface and quite volatile. I feel impatient and I feel just plain sad. I feel like I am failing and I feel so painfully inadequate. I cry more than I would like to admit and some times for no apparent reason. The difficult part is that I FEEL so much and while I can talk myself through it that doesn't make me any better able to FEEL better. It is an entirely new struggle for me unlike any waters that I have previously navigated.

I have tried to minimize this in my mind thinking it's because we moved (again) or because I'm sleep devprived or because we have 4 kids or because I work full time or because I'm older now or because our life is full of drama but those are actually constants for me. I seek no sympathy. I feel a sense of relief acknowledging it and thank those who have patiently stood by me during a time when I am so much less than myself. I am going back to the doctor again this week and really want to do my best to not be a ghost in my own life!

On the B Side: Despite how I feel on the inside the world around me keeps getting better. We're happy in our new place, everyone is healthy and work has unexpectedly thrown me an incredibly huge and tasty bone that I am not at liberty to talk about just yet. This is my favorite time of year and just as soon as I find the cord for my camera I will upload all kinds of ghostly pictures from our fun month of October! Happy Manic Monday to all!