Tuesday, April 8, 2008

Quiet Heartache

I miss my babies. We've made a decision to allow Dayton some additional control over the time he spends with his Dad. While I am excited that Dayton is eager and excited to make choices and also spend time with his Dad I would be lying if I didn't say it is hard for me.

Never in a million years would I make this known to my DD Cakes but as a parent and as a Mother my heart quietly aches. Hopefully this will get a little easier for me as I really do think it is good for him. I supposed tat I am the one with the learning curve here.

More than anything we want our children to be strong, secure and confident. We want what is best for them and we make all kinds of efforts to always put their best interests first. Ellie will be home tonight and I look forward to our time together particularly given that I won't see either of them tomorrow morning.

On the B Side: I haven't cried in almost a week so I don't feel too bad about today. It started earlier with Shellie's latest blog entry and now I sit in a puddle of tears thinking of my children. Can we just blame it on the hormones and call it good? I believe that all of this beats being numb and for that I am grateful.

3 shout outs:

Clancy in Idaho said...

Aw, Britt... makes my heart ache. I'm sorry that you're missing your D man...
You are awesome!

shell said...

sorry! but at least you know you don't have to go to your bishop because you don't have a soul :)

Fiagle Family said...

I would blame the hormones too.. and I dont know about the not have a soul but I got some typed hate mail..from some random person in the ward. You just stay strong and hang in there!